When I am old…

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I’ve been too busy lately. I know why. It’s because my heart is breaking and I’m trying to fill the time with things to take my mind off my sadness. My beautiful mother-in-law is suffering from Alzheimer’s and none of us know who to deal with it. Whilst I write this, she is trying to run away from our house… in her slippers…we are having to restrain her  as she hits us and it is so, so difficult to reconcile this mad woman with the sweet lady who has cared for me like a mother since losing my own mother over twenty seven years ago. I’m sorry if this is not the sort of thing one normally writes in a blog, but words are how I make sense of the world. Words and prayers, but tonight I am full of tears. Alzheimer’s is so cruel.

“And bending down beside the glowing bars, Murmur, a little sadly, how Love fled And paced upon the mountains overhead And hid his face amid a crowd of stars.” (W. B. Yeats)

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About Angela Petch

Bit of a story dreamer, written two novels - a third in progress. I love my little family and in no particular order afterwards: Italian culture, food, wine, walking everywhere I can and especially in the Apennines, East Africa, tennis when I can, reading, reading and more reading. So much to discover still before I die.
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3 Responses to When I am old…

  1. rose constantine says:

    Oh Angela, I’m so sad for you and Maurice. What a lovely photo of your mother-in-law – not young, but still in the prime of life. looking so kind and cheerful and strong.- the real person that the disease so cruelly overlays.

    It feels so inadequate to say “Have you read…”, but there is one book I found very helpful, *Keeping Mum – Caring for Someone With Dementia*, by Marianne Talbot. Lots of practical ideas – things that worked and things that didn’t – and sympathy, both for the carers and the patient, and honesty about how sad and difficult it was but also black humour…

    Love Rose xxx

    On Sun, Feb 18, 2018 at 9:31 PM, Angela Petch’s Blog wrote:

    > Angela Petch posted: ” I’ve been too busy lately. I know why. It’s because > my heart is breaking and I’m trying to fill the time with things to take my > mind off my sadness. My beautiful mother-in-law is suffering from > Alzheimer’s and none of us know who to deal with it. Whilst” >

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  2. Ally says:

    so sorry Angela. I know how much she means to you from your stories in the past. can only send love.

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  3. jessiecahalin says:

    The words are drenched in love! The sadness is wrapped in tenderness for your beautiful mother-in-law. Let your heart weep on the page – rest assured we will listen. Sending my love from Wales. xxx

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