I’ve been too busy lately. I know why. It’s because my heart is breaking and I’m trying to fill the time with things to take my mind off my sadness. My beautiful mother-in-law is suffering from Alzheimer’s and none of us know who to deal with it. Whilst I write this, she is trying to run away from our house… in her slippers…we are having to restrain her as she hits us and it is so, so difficult to reconcile this mad woman with the sweet lady who has cared for me like a mother since losing my own mother over twenty seven years ago. I’m sorry if this is not the sort of thing one normally writes in a blog, but words are how I make sense of the world. Words and prayers, but tonight I am full of tears. Alzheimer’s is so cruel.
“And bending down beside the glowing bars, Murmur, a little sadly, how Love fled And paced upon the mountains overhead And hid his face amid a crowd of stars.” (W. B. Yeats)